The fatigue. It’s so much more than being tired or sleepy. It’s not having a lack of motivation or being lazy. It’s being weighed down so much you feel like you’re moving at a snail’s pace.
It’s so very difficult to fight. It hard to keep your eyes open. It’s difficult to concentrate or focus on things. At times, it’s hard to lift your head.
Naps and getting rest do not relieve this type of fatigue. You can easily rest 10 hours and still few so so very fatigued. It’s unrelenting. It feels like it comes in waves, to me. Nothing I can do until it passes. No one even knows when that’ll be. There’s no telling when it will come or go. It can come at thee most inconvenient times, too. For instance, when you’re left alone to watch after young children OR when you’re invited to a family member’s wedding, which you really planned on attending and really wanted to go. It has no regards for your responsibilities or plans. It makes it incredibly difficult to do normal everyday tasks. You can begin to feel like you’re not even functioning. It can lead to feelings of unworthiness as you may feel unproductive. During these times, some find others calling them lazy. This is not helpful. Many who go through this would love to be up and productive over sitting or laying down and resting so much. All of this can lead to depression.
When you do rest, it is not energizing or refreshing. You end up feeling just as, maybe even more, tired. Sometimes, weakness comes alongside the fatigue. And, it is one of the hardest things to fight. Many have been known to say they’d much rather deal with the pain over the fatigue any day. It can be debilitating, literally.
For me, it has set in now and that means I’ve fallen asleep 3x while writing this. If this blog even makes sense, it’ll be a miracle. Laying in bed and trying to focus. That alone is insanely difficult, much more than it should be.
We don’t want to be so fatigued and unproductive, that’s for sure. For me, I try to remind myself that I still have a voice and a purpose. I urge you to do the same if you’re struggling with all of this. Hang in there and tell yourself it will pass. You’ve done it before and you can do it again.
If you’re witnessing someone you know going through this, please please do not call them lazy. That is not helpful in the slightest. I’m not sure what the answers are, but please meet them with compassionate conversation because, most likely, they are struggling and do not want to feel like this.
I don’t even have the energy to proof read this, so please excuse my typos. Falling asleep…….zzzzzzz